July 27 Daily Entry -- Time

Today I watched a man drop his many bags and make hand signs at the water fountain before getting a drink of water.

He was living in his own world. I wondered if it was a better one, this world where water fountains took your secret hand gestures as a sign to make water. It seems more interesting

Later I watched the people walking and the leaves falling and wondered what it would be like to stop time. Maybe that is what the man did with his hand gesture, but none of us knew. We didn't know the gesture, we couldn't peer into the fabric of time, and so for us it was as if time didn't stop.

I am anxious today because I have human interactions scheduled for this afternoon and evening. I am worried that I will not meet expectations. How does one shed this worry?

Was the man at the water fountain thinking about expectations? Unlikely. And perhaps he would not have met them, except nobody was paying attention to him. He was free to gesture as much as he wanted, because nobody saw him.

Nobody is watching you. Nobody is concerned about you. Relax. Put forth half the effort. Half. Every day. Move slowly. Speak only when necessary. Half the effort.

Even if they see you, does it matter what they think? Yours is the only world you live in.